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A Co-Parenting Update: Part Eight

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Eva Amurri shares a co-parenting update

As we head into the Holiday Season, it’s perfect timing for a little Co-parenting update! The Holidays can be a super tricky time for divorced families. We are fed so much culturally this time of year– about togetherness, family, and what a happy family is supposed to look like. I remember my first Thanksgiving and Christmas post-split from Kyle. It was so challenging for me to keep my head above water with the feelings of guilt and failure, and how diminished I felt by all of it. Even though we were forging a path of peaceful and collaborative co-parenting, I still felt like our reality was somehow “less than” the other ones I was seeing all around me.

I remember showing up to a Santa meet-and-greet that December (also don’t forget I was 6 months pregnant then), and it was a weekend so the room was filled with married couples and their kids. Everyone was dressed in matching, photo-op-worthy outfits. The charm and festivity were turned up to 11. I was alone and pregnant, with my two kids. I was standing there in the midst of all of this feeling like somebody punched me in the stomach. We waited in line, and then after our turn with Santa, I hurried my kids out to our car, sat there, and wept. It felt like the loneliest experience in the world. I truly wondered if the holidays could ever feel happy again. Now, three years later, what I value in my life isn’t the optics of the “perfect” family, but rather the authentic happiness and health of every member of it.

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We, and by We I mean all six of us, are in a great place today. Individually, and together. Co-parenting has taught me so many things: patience, resilience, forgiveness, humility, and a new perspective on humor and awkwardness…LOL. But above all, it’s taught me that you have to re-examine what success and joy mean for you. It’s ok if it’s not the same as what those things mean for your parents, your best friend, or your neighbor. I consider my family, as it is today, the greatest achievement of my life. It takes SO much hard work and effort on all sides. But I’ll never again look around me in a room full of Traditional nuclear families and envy that at face value. I know also that my value as a Mom isn’t designated by whether or not I’m married to my children’s father.

These were not things I can honestly tell you I believed in three years ago. There was so much fear for me. My best advice if you’re going through a similar experience right now is not to project from a fearful place into the future, or feel drawn back into the past. Try to be as present as possible in your reality for this present moment. Find the pieces of joy in it, even the tiny, sparkly, speck-of-glitter-sized ones. There are always some, and they can sustain you if you let them. Tomorrow is a new day, and so is next week, next month, and next year. You never, EVER know what kind of magic is around the next corner. Trust me on that one!

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As we head into the Holidays, there is so much that we’re looking forward to doing as a family! We’re spending Thanksgiving at my Mom’s new home for the first time. Ian and I are bringing the kids, Kyle is meeting us there, and my brothers on my Mom’s side will be there as well. We are all going together the following weekend to watch Major dance in the Nutcracker for the very first time. Then, Ian and I are bringing the two Bigs to see the Nutcracker at Lincoln Center the following week! We plan to spend Christmas Eve and Christmas all six of us together at my house. Somewhere in there, we’re also going to take the kids to see the Rockettes…our favorite, longstanding Holiday tradition.

If you had asked me when I was getting divorced what I was most scared of, I would have told you two things:

  1. That my kids would somehow have a diminished and sad experience from here on out, and that I would always feel guilty for causing that new reality for them.
  2. That I would never get to experience the level of connection, love, and joy that I wished for in my life since I was a little girl. I thought my dream was probably not going to happen.

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Just three years later, my life disproves those fears every single day. My kids are surrounded by love and are thriving. I am partnered with the most incredible person who is the answer to all my prayers, and together as a blended family we are striving for the level of connection, joy, and belonging that I have always hoped to model for my children. This is not the happy ending I wrote in my heart the day I got married eleven years ago. That’s for sure. But my message today, for anybody out there who needs it, is this: sometimes we give up one story, and we write a better one. We leap, full of faith, and when we think we will fall… we fly.

 


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  1. Deb Reed says:

    Happy for you all. What a great update. We know the “nuclear family” was made-up to separate us from real feelings and connections. Throughout the ages, it did take a village. And Mamas / Grandmothers (Honey) were in charge. Love to all.

    My ex and I saw the Rockettes in 1978. Good memories.

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  2. Jaime says:

    These co-parenting/post divorce life updates are so incredibly encouraging. Particularly that closing line.

    Is the podcast still happening?

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  3. Robyn Mizell says:

    Eva, good morning. I hope you and your beautiful family are doing well. I love this article. I’m glad that you and your family have a groove going on full of happiness, health, and love. This resonates with us all “Examine what success and joy mean for you”. Whether it’s the holidays or life in general I hope that your success and joy are filled with all good things. Hugs my friend Robyn.

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  4. Corinna says:

    Great co-parenting update. Love you all dearly and just want the BEST for your family! 💕

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  5. Jennifer says:

    So beautifully said and written! We are a blended family of 7 and the truth of this article is so honest, true and simply beautiful. Fly!

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  6. Glenda says:

    These pics are beautiful 😍
    The first of something new is frightening. Then you find comfort and the strength from within. These words “ sometimes we give up one story, and we write a better one. We leap, full of faith, and when we think we will fall… we fly.” are so spot on. Yes 1000%. So Happy for all 6 of you! ♥️

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  7. Wendy says:

    Beautiful! So beautiful. I’m so happy for you. ❤️ It took years for me to realize that the “perfect scenario” that I had created in my head wasn’t real and just because it didn’t happen that way didn’t mean that it or I was a failure. It’s still a process, but now I try to accept things as they are and appreciate all the love and everyone “as is” …. And it’s definitely enough. ❤️

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  8. Lisa says:

    Bravo! You did the work, you deserve every happiness! ❤️

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  9. Mary says:

    I keep returning again and again to your site for posts like this…🙂 I have the outmost respect and awe for you for deciding to divorce during your third pregnancy and sticking by your decicion despite the fear and loneliness that came with it.For most women this would be simply unimaginable even if they could not stand to be in the same room with their spouse for more than a few minutes!!!😉 I would be tempted to call you lucky( you know because you found a new love soon, who actually loves you and your kids , because you have famous parents, many friends, because you have been raised in a wealthy and intellectual environment and blah blah blah all these BUT , BUT I realise that you and people like you actually have something probably bigger than luck: the simple fact that you love or prefer being happy (instead of being trapped in prolonged miserable feelings and self pitty or lingering in the grey zone in the middle) and you are capable of making lemonade (a good one)when life gives you lemons and this is something I look up to! Kisses, enjoy the holiday season with your wonderful family!

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